close your eyes, clear your heart

Life is such a mix of emotions, it’s enough to drive one crazy.

I’m tired of it. So fucking tired.

When does it get easy?

I miss you so much.

Isn’t it funny how you can live with a person, sleep next to them every night and yet feel as though you haven’t seen them in such a long time. I just want the next 3 weeks to be over so I can have you back.

Heartbroken.

Call me immature, but I’m in tears. After I just paid for a ticket to see my favourite group, closest to my heart, Angus & Julia Stone; Sitting on the upper level, right near the back, Angus & Julia have just announced they have added a 3rd show to their Melbourne Tour.

I could be within breathing, touching, falling in love distance from them. But instead, I’m not.

And I’m gutted.

Do you think it’s possible to both love someone and hate them all at the same time?

Sometimes things just don’t feel right, often they are all the things I have tried to avoid and promised myself I would never allow. But love make’s you crazy. It makes you forgive. And maybe, it actually make’s you lose yourself more than anything.

I don’t want to be controlled.

But maybe you fall into habits. Always choosing wrong and making the same mistakes you’ve made before.

I don’t know.

I have so much love, so how is this post even possible?

Creamfields Baby

Tomorrow.